4 years

So a few days ago on the train ride going back home, I had an epiphany:

I graduated BC almost 4 years ago
I am turning 26 this September
In another 4 years I'll be 30 years old

This realization was pretty scary. What have I done in these 4 years since graduation? Am I who I wanted to be today?

In terms of my career, without going into the details, I'm stuck at a job that I hate. Though, in this economy, I should be thankful that both Danny and I still have our jobs. I've been at this job for 3 years now, March 5th was my 3rd anniversary at the job. I am in the process of pursuing other opportunities, but nothing is set yet, it's all up in the air. The uncertainty is killing me. Even if these other opportunities work out, I'll be starting from ground zero, it's like I'm going back to being 22 all over again. I feel like a failure.

So people tend to say "oh, at least you are married". Is getting married really an accomplishment? I didn't really work hard or anything on getting married... It just so happens that I found my husband earlier than some of my other friends. I am thankful that I have found Danny and we are married. I am thankful for owning a home at a young age. I am thankful for being employed- hey it pays for the house haha. I am also thankful for having friends and families around me and of course- our two furry pups :) But none of these are things I can claim as an accomplishment... What have I accomplished? Sadly, nothing comes to mind.

I really miss the good old college days. I guess it is time to grow up.